I Am Hurt

I may tell some of my problem...But never tell the whole story and the feeling deep inside..
I feel so betrayed by someone so close to me...You never knew whats coming and believe it or not...its hard for me to forgive and very very hard to forget...husband told me i hold a lot of grudges and i cant help it..I am just human who got hurt over and over and over again...Makes me feel so stupid..This is not about my lovelife(i am satisfy and very much happy,thank you very much) and not about things i dont have (never been a material girl).

They keep telling me to forgive my sibling and i swear i try really really hard and its never been easy for me...I hate it when someone you love and trust betrayed you..

I know for myself that i was and still a good younger sister in my sibling ang always love them but it doesnt mean i can cut the cord between them...I dont want that to happen...but it is indeed that the famous qoute is what i guess i really can relate "time heal all wounds" not right now,but in the future...

Good Day

Ta-da

I never thought i will comeback in blogging again not until today when i realize that the last update i made here in Blogspot was 2 years ago..oh yeah forget to mention..We have a new baby...Shes born last feb I and my husband named her stefani..I cant say i am busy considering that i am a stay at home mom maybe i just got bored again...I usually doing the same thing cleaning house,washing laundry,washing dishes.feed the baby,taking care of the baby a typical wife as you can say...

I miss my old life but never gonna exchange what my life now..I may be bored but i doesnt mean im not happy...

Oh well,here we go again.......

empake...

I misCalculated everything...which is really really suck...i bought lot of stuff that cant accomodate my luggage anymore..good thing my knight in a shining armour is here to save me..my husband help me out by bringing another luggage so i can put my excess though theres still lot of stuff left.

I am really dissapointed on Airline new rules and regulation..There is so much little problem come out in last minute...also in my domestic flight which my daughter dont have any baggage allowance to go to boracay...good thing i came up with the idea for me and my mom bringing bigger carry on bag so i can put clothes for my little one..

My husband bring my luggage today to weigh..So we will know how heavy we have now if we have to add or subtract..I bought a nice bag yesterday for my flight but still torn of how many carrry on bags im gonna bring..my option is just bring a back pack and my purse the second is to add another small luggage carry on..im with a baby so i thought it will be a long day for me if im gonna do the 2nd option...

oh other thing i dont think my money is really enough for my vacation...i really want to give some money to my mom but i really have a big doubt it will happen..i really have to squizzzzzz my butt for the next 3 weeks ill stay in philippines without my husband..

hay buhay.....................................

pinas....

Soon....or let say sooner...
Im going back in philippines with my daughter...I was really thought that this would be hard for me..I always pray everything will be fine once i step on the plane for my at least 20 hour flight...from atlanta will jump on sn fransisco..from san fransisco to hongkong and hongkong to manila will be alright..didnt mention with anyone of my friend of what date ill be there..i want it to be suprise...
i have to shop for my dad's clothes and mom..iffff i can find one!!!..have some grocery to bring in pinas..the famous and ang walang kamatayan "spam"i also decide to buy some pancake...hahahaha..
We bought 4 plane ticket for boracay trip it will be me mike dad and mom and my daughter..she's 2 so obviously i dont have to buy her ticket yet...i organize everything from the plane to where we gonna stay..i want this trip would be a good,enjoyable and fun to my parents..next is subic where i found a nice private resort that my family can enjoy that means brother sister mom and dad..kind of Family reunion..Im happy for setting all this up by myself..im proud hahahahaha..

I feel bad to my in laws for not spending christmas this time here their are such a wonderful people and im so glad that they really treated me as one of the family..ill pay them back next holiday..I know they gonna miss heather so much..

so,will see yah soon pilipinas.....

When Pinay Met Joe (kasunod uli)

It was really fun..Sabihin man ng mga kaklase ko na im getting crazy..i dont care..i thought well maybe i really am crazy...that time i am an net addict so chatting with someone thru net is really not a big deal to me...we chat for 4 months..and except for that we also call and text and mail each other....so on and so forth until he told me he want to come and meet me..i got excited and tell my mom about it...my mom is being supported for my net affair hahahaha...consider nman kc na i havent bring anyone in the house...for me,i realize na mike is the right guy ...but before anything happen...r let say before he almost bought ticket he find out the bombing happen in manila..and my nephew paw need to bring in hospital and need to have a blood transfusion soon...it was a rough months...i thought i lost him and never talk to him any more..after the hospital,bombing issue..i got back in my normal life back to work and back in chatting...he's no there anymore..its a weird feeling ang lungkot ko..i feel the tears but i dont let it fall...i said to myself "damn,he's gone"after 2 week i recieve text message saying he already bought ticket and will be in philippines december...I am so happy...excited and unbelieve....

When Pinay Met Joe (ang kasunod)

di na pwedeng mag laro sa ulan..di na lahat...At first parang hindi ko naisip na iba na pala ang mundo kong ginagalawan pero makalipas ang mga araw naramdaman ko na iba na ang sibol ng panahon.....

Michael(mike)Surdyka...He's the youngest originated from New York moved in SC when he was 17 and moved in again in Georgia when he was promoted as a Plant Manager on his quarry...I am sorry but i think my husband autobiography "i think" need to be sacred.. consider that im not in his life for his 37 years of living...So,ibalato nyo nalang...


But in the mean time let me described to all of you what kind of husband is my husband is...He's a fun loving guy...Infairness sa mga taon na unggoy....Sya na yata ang pinaka mabait na unggoy na nakilala ko..He's not a romeo style but he always do something that make me feel special... Masipag naman at down to earth..Mapagmahal na anak at ama..wag lang pagpapalitin ng diaper..


And now the history......


I first met my husband thru yahoo messenger...(usually people dont believe you when its too good to be true)but what really happen is...wala talaga akong idea sa internet love affair ni hindi ko nga alam na me nagkakatuluyan pala sa ganun...I met some but not good enough para seryosohin..kc nga wala akong idea..
Alam nyo na laro laro lang..flirt flirtan..tama ba?i usually go to philippines chatroom..may mabait,may malibog,may drama,may pikon,at higit sa lahat may sinungaling...Hindi mo talaga basta pagkakatiwalaan...not until i met him..we both know na hindi seryoso ung una namin pagkakakilala..its very informal..kaw man sa webcam mo lang nakita...da bah?..I invite him to open my cam wag po kayong mag alala matino naman ako...Tanungan lang kung ano ung basic na mga tinatanong..Ung Nasl...ung kung ano gingawa sa buhay at kung ano ano pa...until we end up talking are love life..Divorce daw sya and i said im single naman in my part..We continue chatting for like 2 hours and promise to chat "maybe"next time..The next day,online uli ako..and whallla..he's there again..

When Pinay Met Joe

Before i start anything about are love story let me give you some background of who am i and my husband...May Ann Boseo is my name..I was born last May 1984..Roman catholic.Im the youngest of 5 sibling and the prettiest este good child in all of them..hehehe..I finish my degree in Bulacan State University and start working as a Swimming Instructress...I usually listen in any kind of music..i love sport..I hate people who think they are better than others but if she/he have the guts why not..Hindi ako pagirl but im not anti..Im not famous when i was in college,im not flirt and of course nagkakacrush naman minsan...Madaldal daw ako pero i realize naging madaldal lang ako when i felt people loves chikas...Being funny is really hard minsan di kanila masakyan minsan naman sakay na sakay sila..Tamad ako sa school or let say teachers are not that good in teaching kaya di ko sila pinagaaksayahan ng panahon...Im not the smartest but im wise hehehe..Im not that head turner kind of girl but im proud of being me..Not the whitest one but my color give me difference to others..My mom and dad is bicolano..But after they got married they move in Bulacan to build their own family..kaya kung bibikolanahin nyo po ako sensya na,nasa dugo lang po wala sa dila..We are in middle class family..Isang kahig isang Tuka...tatay is fisherman and mom is a repacker...So,im not really born with the golden spoon on my mouth sabagay if youll see me in person hindi naman talaga ako mukhang sosyal..My mom and dad have a rocky relationship since when i was born..But until now their sleeping on the same bed living into one roof eating on the same table..I know there's already crack but not at least its not broken..My mom is open.. she just keep telling me she's doing it for the sake of her children..And for that i give her a high five...My dad have a big ego..He's a kind of guy who dont want to arrived from work to the house without food in the table..but i know he did not hurt my mom physically..And for that i give him the same high five..Anyway,i first noticing opposite sex when i was fourth year high school but it turned out that i am just a bubot..No right to be sting by the bee..Im gladFirst year college is a big timr change in my teeny blooper life..All of the sudden di na pala ako pwedeng magpiko di na pwedeng ...........................